unstable conflicts

while she is happy for her new job + her engagement day... me here with more unstable facing to wait for any decision that may come to me.. oh the time! now i know how precious the time.. since i learn about 'computers'.. i wished i could fast forward or shorten the period of time...but now all i have to do is wait for the right time to expand or i might be a lucky person if it considered as not happened to them.. oh luck! i think this situation as a punishment for being 'take it easy for matters' and stubborn too..and there will be no luck to me..

after all my efforts for 5 months.. i pray to Allah to give me strength and i'm going to fully 'tawakkal' that a good thing will come and 'redha' to everything if it is not as i wished for...aminn.. :)

Roxy oh roxy bag!

Yesterday i went to Tebrau City.. after finished my work at 5.30 , run fast going back home changed my baju kurung to tshirt+skirt... with an excited feeling, i drive to jusco tebrau heading towards to roxy store... my main purpose was to grab a set of red handbag and purse.. but so sad, the promoter said, the bag already out of stock,..huhu, ya.. i wont see them anymore.. the one n the only roxy store available in JB now got no more the only bag design that i like.. why they don't open another outlet, so that i wont feel regret rather than going to nearest outlet which is at Melaka,?? so far enough! Pity me..

mypet!

the only pet i ever like it!

Hari Raya Aidilfitri 2011

Malay culture will celebrate hari raya for 30 days in syawal..

now already 18th syawal..still got open house everywhere to attend..

most of families wont have to cook at their house just eat meal during open house from afternoon to midnight.. hehe.. but still lazy to go to open house becoz the one who important to attend just parent...

Ahaaa..!! I almost forgot to show u up my 1st day hari raya which is we were wore the same design n colour for baju kurung and baju melayu suit..

our theme for this year is black..becoz of we girls do like red 'soooo' damn much.. we already choose roses as flower design along our black theme silk... ngeeeee... Selamat hari raya for those muslims in Malaysia.. proud to be Malaysia.. we Malay always Malaysian.. !

Selamat Hari Raya.. Maaf Zahir dan Batin to all muslims ...mwaahhX!! xoxo !

chaos..!xx

unstable emotion rite now.. i cant to forgive while i still cant forget it.. my heart seems being pushed for some reason to live.. ya Allah.. i pray n i begging u to show me the way to get rid all this messed.. i cant stand to be someone that i dont..

its been long time for me facing all your tests.. is it the time for me to back of or to move on or is it one of another test u've been giving me for all the sins ive done so many times before?

i might can faced it physically. but not emotionally.. becoz nobody would listen everything i would say..yup, i might need someone who Listen!

besides, i got a good news this week.. ya.. im so be greatful which is i already got position for my internship.. n im so happy that one of my probs for these 3months..solved! aminn.. since that, nobody know n can share this happiness with me... its ok..

i missed everything about my past where everything just started.. i missed u before.. i miss u when u jst know me.. it makes me think of your kindness.. ya.. your kindness, ur concerns, all that are gone ... i dont know.. when im alone i just thing bout our past..memory bring me to u.. u just u.. n u wont Listen anymore....

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a piece of heart

unsure i can trust u again while u walked away leave me no voice surrounded with complicated 1001 regrets from the 1st time we met.. too many chances i gave u hoping for only 1 changes but i got nothing on it..

today.. after a very long time i didnt speak to someone strangers who i just know him thru fb.. he speak to me.. opened up my mind to bcome more precious rather than think of too many stress to my everyday life..

when i ask about how can i get a good person.. he answered.. u should define the "good" itself.. n then u will know how far the "good" on someone tht u need.. yup n i deserved it..

im jst tired on everyhting..i jst want to looked up for our new happiness.. i really want to change all the bad to be better life.. all in my mind n my heart said.. i missed him n i love him more than everything.. i still want to forgive him even though it hurt me so bad.. i jst dont know why n all i need is to be with him forever..

a day, several times in my mind to call n jst said, i miss u .. but it stuck me then..

u hurt me.. n it hurt me a lot.. i want u to know tht i love u.. i finally found my way since nobody stop me to stay... takecare..

love,

mastura..

u made me felt empty on u

y u do this to me...

am i not important to u anymore...

yesterday incident show me whether u care about me or not..

the answer might be no.. ;(

unhappy when dealing

I dont feel that the government betraying the community..

but why every time when i deal with the government sectors and dealing with the employees makes me so angry and disgusting..?

to my ipta, i was about 31/2 yrs there and i never once felt easy and happy when dealing with all of them ..

including the lecturers and anything there instead of 'pak guard la kan and cleaners' .

why they always make their tight face .. in full .. how much your base salary that bring your attitude worst when working?? if you do good work and treat people well we will give tips to you laaa ... 'student pon byk duit pe' *** still remembered of the massage therapist who receive tips RM100 in front of me from a customer *** I am one of their customers they did treat me well but i still can not give tips as much as them la kan ... goverment is not suck but the worker make the goverment itself going worst kot... lalalalalaa

our 2nd yrs !

thnks god... he still not trying to kill me for over two years.. phew~! haha! ...

-thnks for driving far from trengganu to jb, starting from 8pm and arrived at 4am.. but what took u about 8 hrs to arrived? >> stop by mesra mall, bought me some gift.. >> keropok lekor >> and u get some sleep at muadzam... *kesiannya, leps keje pnt2 terus dtg kn..sbb tu u r the best*...

we already completed two years for being in a relationship together, for the third year and onward, please do not sick of my any bad attitude that always make u tired and annoyed..hehe.. i promise to slowly change it... heehe

-thnks to my parent for endorsing our relationship... and abah said "nikah pon xpe... abah xkesah..tunang2 pon belom tentu kawin" yeke abah?? hahaa... but still i am not ready yet.. loL !

u still the best i ever had,... mwahhx!! xoxo !

how to be pretty nowadays...

after looking at several pictures own by girls in malaysia... i can conclude that if you want to look good and prettier in your pictures, u have to follow all these rules:

1. try to wear the 'bigger eyes' contact lens as often as u can...please wear the very striking blue, green, brown, and u can not try black for your natural look.. i heard of the new lenses that we called it as the 'bigger eyes 3D' contact lense...woww! very technologize...haha! after wear this, your eyes may look so big and even bigger than your nose hole.. haha!

2. eyeliner is a beautiful tricky to make your eyes not dull... this one i love.. *only this okeyh?! haha

3. glue your fake eyelashes, even it was totally fake but mens/boys out there are stupid enough to differentiate it whether it is the fake or the original one. haha!

3.when taking a picture, your camera view must be upper than ur head.. pls take it close up to your eyes by focusing more to it to get your face look 'so fucking damn cute'... haha

4. after photo shoot session, remove your lens and eyeliner and fake eyelashes n fuhhhhh !! magically then NOW u become ugly back again ! haha!

p/s : come on girls.. natural is pretty... eyeliner just quite enough for everyday pretty look !

Alhamdulillah...

Today my boyfriend shared a good news in which he was promoted to the nextproject ... wah~ my hero..hihi...n syg, I hope the next task to be done properly and completely without any restrictions ... all the best for you my dear.. plus dear, u r so lucky to have me as ur girlfriend...bluek~!! hihii~

I want u to know that I will always be there with u and i will oweys support u... I love u my mucuk....mwaahx!~

Princess ke?! duhh~

3 girls came towards me n said "suke tgk akak, mcm princess la~!" wow~~!

i'm blurry for a moment while thinking of something then...y?...they r still kids, n kid's eyes look up on me and their eyes gonna tell their mind... i look like a princess... and babe?! this wasnt my 1st time..

haha! i laugh out quite loud n said " adik, akak xpakai gown larr, princess pakai gown n crown "

but they still said " x, akak mcm princess~"

n i look at them, smiling... n said "thank u sweetheart" ...

and that is a compliment...

I Dont like Cupcakes...for wedding

It really nice to see them decorated by the maker... but i dont think cupcakes wil taste as good as any other expensive cakes... people nowadays had cupcake trend... replacing wedding cake to cupcakes... why? because they r cute to see... give them sweet moment while seeing through them.. with their creamy moist.. n the most factor why they choose cupcakes because i think they r cheaper than cake... trend? who's the cupcake's follower they absolutely out of taste... !!

urgh! i dont feel like im gonna eat them... so much calories n i wont eat them.. n not larr !

when it come to design... is it really cute to see? people who are saying cupcakes are sweet enough to express their moments feeling are stupid.. don't they think they r jst like a child? with a word each on it... says "jst engaged: dog n dog " duhh~~ heh... how pity they r...

i dont like to eat cupcakes or replaced them with wedding or engagement cake.. i rather buying expensive cakes anywhere than put a set of alphabets cupcake on my wedding dining table...blablabla~ say No to cupcakes ~

Pengkid

Malaysian call a girl who always trying hard to be a Boy as PENGKID/LESBIAN...
now i think i have another point for a lesbian aka pengkid..
i have a contact where she is actually being in a relationship with TWO
pengkid/lesbian.. But.. also hve a boyfriend at the same time.. but wHy?
n now i'm going to talk about hers pengkids..
both of hers partner pengkid always fighting.. arguing.. and lately.. they uploaded
their personal pict with the same girl, to show,. trying to show off for one another.. and YES!
i am Annoyed with it!
I know, u both are still younger.. n recently doing nothing to improving ur self instead of working
full time servant.. come on guys.. u r Islam.. Islam fight hard against same kind of relationship
la... i think u both better get a TELEKUNG and ask for ALLAH forgivness.. and i hope u both can change..
try to put shimmery lipstick on ur lips.. it would be better for a younger but not too beautiful like u..
as i knew from my contacts story for her both partner.. the are from a troublesome family..
where they r not happy with their family background...and then.going out, copying like another person
that we had known them as pengkid then.. How pity they are. becoz! it wont solved ur problem at all!!
pls stupid! stop doing something ridiculous.. u r still young or u wont regret it later..

Welcome year 2011

Let's us say hello to 2011... quiet long enough not to kept any wish to be done between the past few years... all we knew for a wish would be all the good things to be happen on it...and still like we never know what does exactly the most needs in our life... but still must have a mission to be completed everyday... for my family, beloved, friends... i will try my best !! goodluck to everybody! love u all! hug and kisses.... ;)