a piece of heart

unsure i can trust u again while u walked away leave me no voice surrounded with complicated 1001 regrets from the 1st time we met.. too many chances i gave u hoping for only 1 changes but i got nothing on it..

today.. after a very long time i didnt speak to someone strangers who i just know him thru fb.. he speak to me.. opened up my mind to bcome more precious rather than think of too many stress to my everyday life..

when i ask about how can i get a good person.. he answered.. u should define the "good" itself.. n then u will know how far the "good" on someone tht u need.. yup n i deserved it..

im jst tired on everyhting..i jst want to looked up for our new happiness.. i really want to change all the bad to be better life.. all in my mind n my heart said.. i missed him n i love him more than everything.. i still want to forgive him even though it hurt me so bad.. i jst dont know why n all i need is to be with him forever..

a day, several times in my mind to call n jst said, i miss u .. but it stuck me then..

u hurt me.. n it hurt me a lot.. i want u to know tht i love u.. i finally found my way since nobody stop me to stay... takecare..

love,

mastura..

u made me felt empty on u

y u do this to me...

am i not important to u anymore...

yesterday incident show me whether u care about me or not..

the answer might be no.. ;(

unhappy when dealing

I dont feel that the government betraying the community..

but why every time when i deal with the government sectors and dealing with the employees makes me so angry and disgusting..?

to my ipta, i was about 31/2 yrs there and i never once felt easy and happy when dealing with all of them ..

including the lecturers and anything there instead of 'pak guard la kan and cleaners' .

why they always make their tight face .. in full .. how much your base salary that bring your attitude worst when working?? if you do good work and treat people well we will give tips to you laaa ... 'student pon byk duit pe' *** still remembered of the massage therapist who receive tips RM100 in front of me from a customer *** I am one of their customers they did treat me well but i still can not give tips as much as them la kan ... goverment is not suck but the worker make the goverment itself going worst kot... lalalalalaa

our 2nd yrs !

thnks god... he still not trying to kill me for over two years.. phew~! haha! ...

-thnks for driving far from trengganu to jb, starting from 8pm and arrived at 4am.. but what took u about 8 hrs to arrived? >> stop by mesra mall, bought me some gift.. >> keropok lekor >> and u get some sleep at muadzam... *kesiannya, leps keje pnt2 terus dtg kn..sbb tu u r the best*...

we already completed two years for being in a relationship together, for the third year and onward, please do not sick of my any bad attitude that always make u tired and annoyed..hehe.. i promise to slowly change it... heehe

-thnks to my parent for endorsing our relationship... and abah said "nikah pon xpe... abah xkesah..tunang2 pon belom tentu kawin" yeke abah?? hahaa... but still i am not ready yet.. loL !

u still the best i ever had,... mwahhx!! xoxo !

how to be pretty nowadays...

after looking at several pictures own by girls in malaysia... i can conclude that if you want to look good and prettier in your pictures, u have to follow all these rules:

1. try to wear the 'bigger eyes' contact lens as often as u can...please wear the very striking blue, green, brown, and u can not try black for your natural look.. i heard of the new lenses that we called it as the 'bigger eyes 3D' contact lense...woww! very technologize...haha! after wear this, your eyes may look so big and even bigger than your nose hole.. haha!

2. eyeliner is a beautiful tricky to make your eyes not dull... this one i love.. *only this okeyh?! haha

3. glue your fake eyelashes, even it was totally fake but mens/boys out there are stupid enough to differentiate it whether it is the fake or the original one. haha!

3.when taking a picture, your camera view must be upper than ur head.. pls take it close up to your eyes by focusing more to it to get your face look 'so fucking damn cute'... haha

4. after photo shoot session, remove your lens and eyeliner and fake eyelashes n fuhhhhh !! magically then NOW u become ugly back again ! haha!

p/s : come on girls.. natural is pretty... eyeliner just quite enough for everyday pretty look !

Alhamdulillah...

Today my boyfriend shared a good news in which he was promoted to the nextproject ... wah~ my hero..hihi...n syg, I hope the next task to be done properly and completely without any restrictions ... all the best for you my dear.. plus dear, u r so lucky to have me as ur girlfriend...bluek~!! hihii~

I want u to know that I will always be there with u and i will oweys support u... I love u my mucuk....mwaahx!~

Princess ke?! duhh~

3 girls came towards me n said "suke tgk akak, mcm princess la~!" wow~~!

i'm blurry for a moment while thinking of something then...y?...they r still kids, n kid's eyes look up on me and their eyes gonna tell their mind... i look like a princess... and babe?! this wasnt my 1st time..

haha! i laugh out quite loud n said " adik, akak xpakai gown larr, princess pakai gown n crown "

but they still said " x, akak mcm princess~"

n i look at them, smiling... n said "thank u sweetheart" ...

and that is a compliment...