unstable conflicts

while she is happy for her new job + her engagement day... me here with more unstable facing to wait for any decision that may come to me.. oh the time! now i know how precious the time.. since i learn about 'computers'.. i wished i could fast forward or shorten the period of time...but now all i have to do is wait for the right time to expand or i might be a lucky person if it considered as not happened to them.. oh luck! i think this situation as a punishment for being 'take it easy for matters' and stubborn too..and there will be no luck to me..

after all my efforts for 5 months.. i pray to Allah to give me strength and i'm going to fully 'tawakkal' that a good thing will come and 'redha' to everything if it is not as i wished for...aminn.. :)

Roxy oh roxy bag!

Yesterday i went to Tebrau City.. after finished my work at 5.30 , run fast going back home changed my baju kurung to tshirt+skirt... with an excited feeling, i drive to jusco tebrau heading towards to roxy store... my main purpose was to grab a set of red handbag and purse.. but so sad, the promoter said, the bag already out of stock,..huhu, ya.. i wont see them anymore.. the one n the only roxy store available in JB now got no more the only bag design that i like.. why they don't open another outlet, so that i wont feel regret rather than going to nearest outlet which is at Melaka,?? so far enough! Pity me..

mypet!

the only pet i ever like it!

Hari Raya Aidilfitri 2011

Malay culture will celebrate hari raya for 30 days in syawal..

now already 18th syawal..still got open house everywhere to attend..

most of families wont have to cook at their house just eat meal during open house from afternoon to midnight.. hehe.. but still lazy to go to open house becoz the one who important to attend just parent...

Ahaaa..!! I almost forgot to show u up my 1st day hari raya which is we were wore the same design n colour for baju kurung and baju melayu suit..

our theme for this year is black..becoz of we girls do like red 'soooo' damn much.. we already choose roses as flower design along our black theme silk... ngeeeee... Selamat hari raya for those muslims in Malaysia.. proud to be Malaysia.. we Malay always Malaysian.. !

Selamat Hari Raya.. Maaf Zahir dan Batin to all muslims ...mwaahhX!! xoxo !

chaos..!xx

unstable emotion rite now.. i cant to forgive while i still cant forget it.. my heart seems being pushed for some reason to live.. ya Allah.. i pray n i begging u to show me the way to get rid all this messed.. i cant stand to be someone that i dont..

its been long time for me facing all your tests.. is it the time for me to back of or to move on or is it one of another test u've been giving me for all the sins ive done so many times before?

i might can faced it physically. but not emotionally.. becoz nobody would listen everything i would say..yup, i might need someone who Listen!

besides, i got a good news this week.. ya.. im so be greatful which is i already got position for my internship.. n im so happy that one of my probs for these 3months..solved! aminn.. since that, nobody know n can share this happiness with me... its ok..

i missed everything about my past where everything just started.. i missed u before.. i miss u when u jst know me.. it makes me think of your kindness.. ya.. your kindness, ur concerns, all that are gone ... i dont know.. when im alone i just thing bout our past..memory bring me to u.. u just u.. n u wont Listen anymore....

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a piece of heart

unsure i can trust u again while u walked away leave me no voice surrounded with complicated 1001 regrets from the 1st time we met.. too many chances i gave u hoping for only 1 changes but i got nothing on it..

today.. after a very long time i didnt speak to someone strangers who i just know him thru fb.. he speak to me.. opened up my mind to bcome more precious rather than think of too many stress to my everyday life..

when i ask about how can i get a good person.. he answered.. u should define the "good" itself.. n then u will know how far the "good" on someone tht u need.. yup n i deserved it..

im jst tired on everyhting..i jst want to looked up for our new happiness.. i really want to change all the bad to be better life.. all in my mind n my heart said.. i missed him n i love him more than everything.. i still want to forgive him even though it hurt me so bad.. i jst dont know why n all i need is to be with him forever..

a day, several times in my mind to call n jst said, i miss u .. but it stuck me then..

u hurt me.. n it hurt me a lot.. i want u to know tht i love u.. i finally found my way since nobody stop me to stay... takecare..

love,

mastura..

u made me felt empty on u

y u do this to me...

am i not important to u anymore...

yesterday incident show me whether u care about me or not..

the answer might be no.. ;(